Some days it's easy. It's easy to forget about kids that are starving to death while I'm sitting eating chips that I don't need. It's easy to waste my day watching a television that over 2/3 of the world will never see. Some days it's easy to forget all of the hurt the world has.
But, some days it's hard. It's hard to see the faces of the kids I love and realize I'm a world away from them. It's hard to think of the memories with these kids knowing that I won't be able to make more for a long time. And it's hard to remember that they don't have a parent that randomly hugs them and tells them how much they are loved.
These hard days happen often because every little thing reminds me of the kids that forever have my heart. If you know me now, I can barely get through a conversation without bringing up my sweet babies in Africa. Some people get annoyed that they only thing I can talk about is Africa, but they don't realize the impact it had on me.
Ever since I got back, something changed within me. I can't care less about the newest thing and getting presents for Christmas and my birthday. I've begun to think about those who have next to nothing. Those who only own what they wear on their back. I think about how spoiled we are here in America and some days I'm overwhelmed by it. Some days I would do anything to get back to the simple life in Africa.
But then I remember. I remember God wants me here right now. Most days, I wonder why I'm stuck in Alabama when I just want to love on my babies who happen to live a world away. But then He reminds me His plans are perfect, and He has a reason for everything that happens. That's the wonderful thing about our Savior. He knows the answer when we ask "why?". He knows the answer when we ask "how?". He knows it all.
He has reasons for the good days and reasons for the bad. In the end, it's all to glorify Him and spread His Word to all the earth. So, for now, I am thankful for the good days and the bad. I am thankful for a loving God who knows everything always. And I am thankful for the kids that left an imprint on my heart forever.
